Sunday, January 28, 2007


“For I know the plans I have for you” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.”

Jeremiah 29: 11-13 (NIV)

The unexpected has happened. I am taking a break from ministry. Soul Searching will not run this season. I have sensed for a while that it is time for a break. I have ignored that sense. It was only when some serious logistical issues came about that we decided not to move forward. I was so relieved. I am so grateful for this time to reboot.

Soul Searching is not just Wednesday night. It is hours of preparation and follow up. I have really felt the burden of being a ministry leader on top of being a facilitator and speaker. I will miss Soul Searching these next few months though. And I am wondering what life will be like for me now. Soul Searching has become a huge part of my identity.

I don’t want the next few months to just pass by. I want to be intentional about how I spend this time. It feels sort of like a sabbatical even though I still have a full time job.

One thing I want to do is to improve my spiritual life. It is hard to know how I have accomplished that. I think that I will have to continue to explore to know what that looks like. I guess the goal would be that I would be able to tell you what I have learned in the end.

I also want to spend more time writing. I want to be consistent about posting to my blog and also writing fiction. I learn so much about myself and God when I write. I have especially missed fiction because it is such a creative expression. I have a few projects that I have started. One in particular I would like to pick up.

Finally and almost most importantly, I want to have fun. I want to see the joy in life. I want to spend time with my friends. I want to… I don’t know. Do fun stuff.

As I enter this season I do so with a little bit of trembling. God is calling me into His presence. I am not sure what will happen at the end of this rest. But I am hanging onto God’s promise that His plans are to prosper me. I also notice that part of my prosperous future includes praying and seeking God. He has given me a hope and a future. Now it is my turn to pray and seek Him with all my heart.

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

The Calm After the Storm

The storm comes
It is unexpected
How did I miss the warning?

Darkness surrounds
No hope in sight
Waiting for morning

Dawn has broken
And with it brings light
The waiting has been rewarded

World is a different place
Sun is shining
Everything starts to make sense

There is a peace that reigns
Happiness is possible
Grace has brought great things

I soak up the sun
Bask in the happy day
It is the calm after the storm