In the past few days I have found myself reaching out a little more. I have been honest about where I am at. I am not sure what I expected but I am grateful that I didn’t get it. What I got from my friends was an overwhelming sense of grace.
I remember when I first started exercising and caring about my health I was hesitant to share with anyone. I knew there would times like t his when I struggled to stay on track. I didn’t want to disappoint anyone. Yet as I started to post on Facebook what I was doing I had a bunch of cheerleaders instantly. I loved the support I got. So I guess when I was honest about what was happening I expected the same type of support. I expected people to cheer me on.
That wasn’t what I needed. I need people to stand with me and that is what they have done. They have modeled God’s love to me. I am overwhelmingly grateful for it. I decided that what I really need is to get back to the basics of remembering how much God cares for me and how He sees me. I am slowly becoming more active and eating better but that is coming out of an overflow. I refuse to kick my ass because that isn’t what I need. I need to remember. The rest will come.