I Was Never Broken

For a long time I have referred to some of the struggles in my life as ‘brokenness’.I don’t say this anymore.I am not broken.The bible says we are ‘fearfully and wonderfully made’ (Psalm 139:14).Do this mean we won’t struggle?No.We will struggle.What we do to cope with this struggle can be labeled as brokenness.
So I have been learning to reframe brokenness as ways of getting along that I perhaps no longer need.Either I have new tools, or the assumptions about what I need are no longer valid.My so-called brokenness is not brokenness at all.It is strength.It got me through a difficult time when I had no other tools available to me.My previous self wasn’t broken.She was courageous and strong.
If you stop looking at yourself from a framework of brokenness, it gives you power.You suddenly realize that, with God beside you, you can handle way more than you think.By not starting from a place of deficiency, you fight for yourself and what you know will work for you.


I have given up on keeping a gratitude journal about 10 times.I would try.Stick with coming up with 3 things I was grateful for every day for a month.Then I would stop.It never really made me feel better.The only thing it accomplished was to check off another ‘should’ from my list.
Honestly keeping a gratitude journal just gave me a reason to feel bad about myself.I would think:
“Why is it so hard to come up with my three things?’ “How long before I actually feel grateful for this stuff?’ “Why am I so ungrateful for the gifts that God has given me?” “What’s wrong with me?” “I am a bad person.”
Okay that is a bit dramatic but I do know that actually trying to keep a gratitude journal and having it fail did make me feel bad.So I stopped trying years ago.The issue was that people I respect would say that gratitude is a requirement for living a fulfilled life.I believed them.It makes a lot of sense.It just didn’t work for me.
Fast forward to this fall.I started trying to pay more intention to my …

Jillian Michaels - Maximize Your Life

I was really excited when I heard Jillian Michaels was coming to Winnipeg.  If you don't know who Jillian Michaels she is the trainer that is known for being on the Biggest Loser.  Jillian's contestants are often the winners of the Biggest Loser (as was the case this year with a contestant who had everything against her in the beginning.)  The reason I like Jillian is not because of her training skills.  It is because she has an ability to get to the heart of a contestant and figure out what it is that is getting in the way of their goals.

When she came on stage see was instantly endearing.  She swapped her high heels for flip flops saying that she felt like she had done her duty by coming out in them.  She broke down what she was going to talk about - nutrition, working out, mind.  She was real about the fact that many of the people who came to see her, wanted to know how to lose weight so she spent the first hour talking about it.  The second hour was all about how to meet y…

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