Sunday, February 27, 2011

This Week

I realized a couple of weeks ago that I was regretting entering The Biggest Loser contest at work.  At first I thought this would just help me focus on my goal.  I have found that it is counter-productive for me.  I am focusing on a number on the scale…  a goal I never set.  I know that if I strive for eating healthy and exercising I will lose weight.  It just won’t be on a timeline.  Today I am starting to understand that I need to ignore the contest or it will drive me crazy.

I have had some aches and pains that are on the edge of injury.  I am committed to continue to run.  I did a strength training workout this week as well.  I chose not to do a second strength training because I was already in pain on Thursday and I was afraid I would injure myself.  I think it was the right choice.

Yesterday I did run six  minutes walk one minute.  I have never done that before.  I think six minutes is the longest I have run and that was with an equal walking interval.  It was really hard and by the end I am sure I would have walked faster.  But I kept going.  Next week is eight minutes.  I am both terrified and excited about the prospect.

This morning my pastor made me think about how far I have come in the past few years.  I have had victory over things I never thought I would and that has allowed me to even consider tackling my health.  I am so glad I am not in that place anymore.  Sometimes remembering where we have been gives us the courage to move forward.

Monday, February 21, 2011

Tired

stressI have been looking forward to this weekend for a couple of weeks now.  I knew that I would need to recuperate from this week.  After I have been in near crisis mode for two weeks it is difficult to stop my mind from spinning.  I had thought that I would get things back in order and get back to life as normal.  I am realizing today that I still need to take it slow and be kind to myself.

I have done pretty well these two weeks.  I kept up with my running.  I ate mostly healthy when I could.  I have enough meals in the freezer to keep eating healthy meals.  Today I am going to start my new strength training program.  Cleaning the apartment from top to bottom might just have to wait.

Saturday, February 05, 2011

Excuses

The next two weeks are presenting a lot of challenge to my resolutions.  In other words, I am crazy busy.  I have been trying to think of when I am going to be able to get my workouts in.  I also want to remain somewhat sane over the next two weeks.  So I have come up with a plan.

I know I need to keep my running workouts up or I won’t keep up with the class.  So I need to find time to do that.  As for the strength training workouts they will be on hold for the next two weeks.  I just got a new program from my trainer this week so I am looking forward to trying them but now is not the time.  That means that I will likely only get three workouts in a week.

I also know that in order to be strong through this time I need to eat properly.  I have been storing some meals in my freezer and this weekend I am cooking some more.  I should have almost enough to get me through the two weeks.  So I will be able to keep up with that.  And I know that I set the 80% goal so I will give myself permission to enjoy what the other people around me are eating next weekend.

Everyone says they are busy.  And yes they are busy, perhaps they lead a life at the pace I will over the next two weeks all the time.  I know I need to be kind to myself or I will crash and burn.  So yes I have excuses…  but excuses are not always a bad thing.  There are valid excuses and I am making a choice to try and coast on some of my goals for the next two weeks without letting everything fall apart.

Tomorrow I am having pizza for the first time in a long time.  Oh I am looking forward to it.  I think the pizza will taste even better than it did when I was eating it all of the time.  Yum!