Reboot

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“For I know the plans I have for you” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.”

Jeremiah 29: 11-13 (NIV)

The unexpected has happened. I am taking a break from ministry. Soul Searching will not run this season. I have sensed for a while that it is time for a break. I have ignored that sense. It was only when some serious logistical issues came about that we decided not to move forward. I was so relieved. I am so grateful for this time to reboot.

Soul Searching is not just Wednesday night. It is hours of preparation and follow up. I have really felt the burden of being a ministry leader on top of being a facilitator and speaker. I will miss Soul Searching these next few months though. And I am wondering what life will be like for me now. Soul Searching has become a huge part of my identity.

I don’t want the next few months to just pass by. I want to be intentional about how I spend this time. It feels sort of like a sabbatical even though I still have a full time job.

One thing I want to do is to improve my spiritual life. It is hard to know how I have accomplished that. I think that I will have to continue to explore to know what that looks like. I guess the goal would be that I would be able to tell you what I have learned in the end.

I also want to spend more time writing. I want to be consistent about posting to my blog and also writing fiction. I learn so much about myself and God when I write. I have especially missed fiction because it is such a creative expression. I have a few projects that I have started. One in particular I would like to pick up.

Finally and almost most importantly, I want to have fun. I want to see the joy in life. I want to spend time with my friends. I want to… I don’t know. Do fun stuff.

As I enter this season I do so with a little bit of trembling. God is calling me into His presence. I am not sure what will happen at the end of this rest. But I am hanging onto God’s promise that His plans are to prosper me. I also notice that part of my prosperous future includes praying and seeking God. He has given me a hope and a future. Now it is my turn to pray and seek Him with all my heart.

Comments

Lea said…
Yay Misty! What a great scripture! I needed to hear that one today -- I didn't get two of the jobs I applied for. I keep applying. Sorry I missed Sunday -- I slept in. I was really excited about coming too :(. What did I learn this weekend -- You need to set your alarm so you get up at the right time!
11:08 PM
Brad said…
Hey Misty!

I kind of felt like I needed a break from Soul Searching, too. It was quite a bit just being a guest and such, so I can imagine all the work that goes into organizing it. Nothing wrong with recharging the old batteries, I say.
10:44 PM
Brad said…
Hey Misty!

I kind of felt like I needed a break from Soul Searching, too. It was quite a bit just being a guest and such, so I can imagine all the work that goes into organizing it. Nothing wrong with recharging the old batteries, I say.
10:44 PM
Anonymous said…
I agree about the scripture...I've been so busy that I haven't had much time for God, never mind friends. A great reminder that I need to seek him whole heartedly
10:54 AM
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