I remember the day I all of a sudden felt like I was ready to move. It was December 30th. In the days leading up to my vacation I had felt a considerable pull to watch television, play video games, have naps, read, or do anything that didn’t require energy or thought. From about December 23rd on, I did very little. I didn’t feel well. I was tired. I enjoyed my time with friends but I also felt like I needed considerable time at home.
I have typically viewed this as behaviour I want to change. Yet knowing how I felt suddenly on December 30th I wonder if this is the way God built me. My periods of rest involve things that others may view as ‘wasting my time’. It wasn’t a waste of time. I think it is what I needed.
If at that point I would have been exercising regularly, I would have kept it up. Food is always an issue during the holidays but I think I would have had a better time of eating healthy if I had been doing that all along. So maybe the key is not punishing myself for doing what I enjoy but creating a context for doing those things where they don’t detract from my health.