The Fork in The Road I Haven't Found Yet

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I have noticed that in the past couple of days I have had a general sense of dissatisfaction with everything. I am grumpy. Everything pisses me off. I am having trouble keeping the little stuff in perspective. As I was waiting for the bus to take me home (and on the bus too) I kept going over the latest reason why I feel like I have been overlooked. The sane part of me kept trying to let go but I couldn’t.

Do you ever feel like you need to make a decision about something but you are not sure what the question is? I feel that way. I want to start changing everything and adjusting to see if I can find a way to feel better. Yet I know I have to be patient. God will show me what He is after. I am finding it hard to be patient…

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mom_of_4 said…
I hear ya...

I think Steve Bell sums it up pretty well though:
"I guess I'll just be restless 'til You satisfy me..."

That's worth a "sheesh", I think :o)
10:46 PM
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